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The look in your eyes

When you said your goodbyes. 

so empty and fake.

My heart began to ache.

I walked towards the door.

Theres no turning back.

you will hurt me no more.

my whole world turns to black.

No emotion, No cares.

Just pointless affairs.

I gave it my all

And you knew i would fall.

everything was a lie.

so this is MY goodbye.

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As i sit here waiting,

to hear your call.

I start to wonder,

if you'll even come at all.

I try to hold back tears,

Knowing our love is lost.

All the fighting and the yelling,

and the love that it cost.

I long for your touch,

more and more each day.

i pushed too much,

had too much to say.

If i just let you live your life,

and moved on with mine.

instead of wanting to be your wife,

i think we would be fine.

So many things i want to say.

no words could explain,

because at the end of every day,

all the pain will still remain.

when we finally gave up hope,

i could see it in your eyes.

we were at the end of the rope,

we could tell no more lies.

So i turned the other way,

when i couldn't take much more.

Nothing was left to say,

As i headed for the door.

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Every night in my dreams

the unimaginable comes true..

And every day it seems

that everything revolves around you..

Every day i wake

to an empty bed

Every smile i fake

get out of my head.

I long for your touch

i ache for your kiss.

Its all just too much

your the only thing i miss.

In my eyes your my home.

the reason i strive

So why do i feel so alone

how am i supposed to survive.

Christmas Time!

Welp.. Got our little 4ft Family Dollar Christmas Tree up. ;D at least it's something right? We have 3 stockings hung up on the wall above the heater too since we don't have a fireplace !

Better pictures when I get more batteries for my stupid digital camera. ;]

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Forgotten Blog!

I completely forgot I had even made this blog... So many things have changed! I now have a beautiful 15 month old daughter Riley, and when I have a spare minute where I'm not being pestered to play with her jack in the box I will write some more =)